Learning to Lean

 “Call to me and I will answer you and tell you great and unsearchable things you do not know.”      Jeremiah 33:3 (NIV)

I’ve walked miles of yesterdays. Yesterdays shaped by dreams and propelled by determination. Yesterdays clouded with despair that eventually blurred my vision. Yesterdays that often ended in confused defeat.  My struggle travels on.

I’ve planned many, many tomorrows. Futures where I move freely… changed and healthy and in control. I’ve aimed for the harbors of success. I have mapped my journey. I’ve acquired the vehicles to get me there.  I’ve grabbed on to passersby for help. Yet, I’ve never truly arrived at the tomorrow of my dreams.

The yesterdays are gone and tomorrow is only tomorrow until it becomes today.  Reaching for a hoped future is sometimes like grabbing at air.  There is nothing in your hand when you pull it back.

What do you hope for? What burden do you carry with you through life?  What have you attempted and failed at controlling, time and time again?

My whole life, weight has defined me. I don’t remember a time when I wasn’t slightly off center from everyone else. I’m the one in clothes, since birth, that were either homemade or from the Chubby department (translate that now into “Plus Size”). I’m the one that you dread to see when you walk towards your seat on the plane…”Please don’t let THAT be my row!” I am the one who wears the struggle for all to see every moment of every day…an all-too-public badge of defeat. I’m the one the pediatrician labeled, “Pleasingly plump”, well past that descriptor now at 42% BMI.

Is this weight thing a lack of will power?  Or is it more accurate to say that I am not relying on God’s power.  I know I’ve not totally turned this struggle over to God and I am here to tell you that I am tired of owning this problem.  I can’t try to fix this anymore.  I need to lay my burden at the foot of the cross. I need to lean into the Heavenly Father for comfort, guidance and strength.

Weight may not be your issue, but we all are challenged by life. What do you need  to trust God with today? All that any of us are left with is today, and today is here…now. Today is a gift. We begin our journeys and reach our destinations in the “todays” of life.

Every moment of each  day is filled with opportunities for change, for obedience, for victory.  I have come to know deeply, in the inner chamber of my heart, that my journey will end and begin at the point at which I place my hand in the hand of our Heavenly Father.

In this moment, dear friends, step with me into today.

Let us walk together in strength with Christ ahead of us as our navigator. No matter what challenges may arise down the road, our victories are assured if we press forward and follow Him.

I will instruct you and teach you in the way you should go; I will counsel you with my loving eye on you.”     Psalm 32:8 (NIV)

Pray for me as I learn to lean on Him in all things. I will be praying for you.






4 responses to “Learning to Lean

  1. Jeremiah 33:3 was a game changer in my life, so you had me from the start. Yes, we all have something we need to trust God with, but we must call out to Him first. Seek Him with all of our hearts. Lean on Him in all things. Today. We can pray for each other. Loved your post!

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  2. Yes, we all have our BMI’s, places outside the realm of maybe where we should be. Struggles that we can’t seem to conquer. Each of them looks so different to someone who doesn’t share yours, but we can pray that the Lord will bring success, or at the very least, peace to your burden. I struggle daily. Sometimes I think it would be easier if I wore my struggle like a suit. Keeping it inside is oh so exhausting….so everyday I pray for that peace to come. I am praying for you Glynda, and Vanessa, and Brenda…that the Lord will grant you all a step in the right direction today - His direction


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