It’s Not You, It’s Me

 

What is going on with my relationship with God? Why do I feel like I’m not connecting?  As I spend time in prayer, my mind wanders.  I read the devotional, and then read it again, still struggling to comprehend.  Why can’t I focus?

The connection is fuzzy, like a reflection in a pond on a windy day.  It’s like static on an old AM radio.

The one thing I am certain of is that this static is not a “God thing”.  This is all me.  God is always there – or rather here.  And like my relationships with friends and family, my relationship with God can go through rough patches.  Like my earthly relationships, I know that this relationship is not one to give up on, because God never gives up on me.  Even when I deserve nothing, He gives His grace freely.  He hangs in there with me; helping me, forgiving me, leading me – if only I can stay quiet enough to hear Him.

Part of my problem is every day can’t be a mountain top moment.  Why not?  Because like an endless string of beautiful, warm, sunny days, I will stop appreciating them.  God knows this about me and, I think, wants to make sure I notice the mountain tops. I will remember that Jesus said:

“…I am with you always, even to the very end of the age” Mt 28:20

So now I will pray.

Heavenly Father – I thank you for Your patience and grace, Your presence in my life, Your willingness to help me learn at my own slow pace.  Lord God, Your love is overwhelming.  I thank You for the chance to have a relationship with You. I pray that I will stop getting distracted and notice all the miracles you send my way.  In Jesus’ name I pray.

3 responses to “It’s Not You, It’s Me

  1. This hit it right on the nail for me! I am distracted for all my chronic pain and injuries. Thank you Lord that yes you are with me always even through all my circumstances that I can and cannot control.

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  2. Hmmmm, I totally understand the desire for mountain top moments. That is when God is vibrant and evident in our days. It is easy to be joyful in those moments…much more difficult to find that same joy when your mountain tops looks more like foothills…or even valleys. Sighs, I’m with you sister. I will pray for a hilltop glimpse for you today! Thanks for putting a name to what so many feel. God is there….sometimes we just have to look a little harder.

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