dear vanessa ~ let it go

Dear Vanessa,

Life has been quite the journey so far.    Overwhelming at times, and a whole lot of hurt.    I can’t talk about the hurt or the pain, because every time I do, my eyes well up in tears.   Sometimes I feel empty, and wonder why these things happen?  I want to lead my family to the right emotional place, but right now, I just don’t feel like I can. 


Dearest Mary,

Yes, life is hard, we live in a broken world.  But the wonderful saving grace is God’s continued grace and love.   He asks us to lift up our worries to Him, and says the broken will be restored.  He leads us, but sometimes we have to let go and move forward, one step in front of the other.

Are you feeling like something is holding you back?   Something stuffed inside a dark place, so heavy, that the weight was too much to bear?

I believe we go in waves of this feeling, sometimes we can get past it quite quickly by enacting the act of “Letting Go” and at other times, the hurt is so deep that we hold on.   We hold on and stuff it deep allowing it to seep inside our soul.

When we hold onto the hurt, it stops us for becoming all that we can be and from experiencing inner peace.

For me, there were so many hurts in my life that I stuffed and stored them deep down inside.   My insides were broken, and the weight was so heavy that I couldn’t carry it.   I was shackled with pain.

Sometimes, we do not realize how the hurt is holding us in shackles.

How did I let go?
·         I excavated my past and started searching my soul for the life events that made an imprint.  I then grabbed a pen, and sorted through the feelings and blame.
·         I wrote a message to the boy that bullied me for a good portion of my childhood, and told him I forgave him and hoped that he would never experience the same pain.
·         I wrote a message to the 4 boys that sexually assaulted me as a teenager, and forgave them.  I forgave them for hurting me so deep inside.  I forgave myself for trusting.   
·         I forgave the ones that loved me for not seeing the pain I felt so deep inside.
·         I forgave myself for making a choice that changed our lives forever.

Letting go can be difficult, because it often involves forgiveness.  Sometimes that forgiveness is a mountain of hurt.    But forgiveness does not mean reconciliation.    The beauty in forgiveness is it is something we can control.  Reconciliation involves two parties where both admit to wrong doings and learn to let go and move on.  The key to reconciliation is that both sides own their behavior.   We have no control over reconciliation.

Sometimes we just need to let go of the relationship completely because it is not good for us.   God wants a better life for us, and there are times where He steered his people out of bad relationships into something better (when the Israelites left Egypt).

  • What is holding you back?  Is it time to let go of the past?
  • Is a there a relationship that is zapping you dry?
  • Did someone hurt you?
  • Did something happen in your life where there is a whole lot of blame?
  • Forgive and let it go my friend…
  • Let it go in order to feel whole again.

Let Him lead you to a better place………………..

Dear Lord God,

We know you heal the broken, and restore us in You.   Help lead us to a better place Lord, a place where we can be healed from the pain that is holding us back from really living this life.  Help Mary and all of your sheep Lord, lead us to be free.

May you be blessed my friend ~Ness

Is God asking you to let go? What is holding you back? Consider leaving a comment.
Tags: broken, don't stuff it!, heavy burdens, inner peace, let go of hurt, letting go, personal growth

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